“Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.” – James 1:12
You have endured hardships and pain. You have fought against who and what you’re not. Internally you’ve suffered and no one has seen it. Yet, you’re still faithful to the Father. Because you’ve never given up, the Lord will bless you. Stay encouraged.